When I was young, compared to my other friends, I was more of a romantic person. Always dreaming for the day I could have a girlfriend. Like I was always desperate for love. Always wanting to find and understand, to feel what love is. Not a family love, not a friend love, but a romantic love. Well, things happen and school life comes and goes.
2010, college was when I wanted to explore and be rebellious. There weren't many Christian girls hence I just tried my 'luck' but again, no dice. There was one potential girl but I made a mistake and that too never happened.
When I started to work in 2016, life became quieter. No more peers, no meeting new people, and this continued on till 2019 when I thought I had met a nice girl but that too was fruitless.
Over the course of the MCO due to Covid 19, I tried going online dating to find a potential partner. However, over the course of 1 1/2 years, I gave up. People online did not seem genuine. Now here I am pondering why am I still single.
It came to me that God most likely protected me. Now. I'm not saying all the girls I meet are bad. It's just that the majority were non-Christians which definitely goes against God's law to be equally yoke. Furthermore, some left the faith, some were never faithful and some are only Christian by name.
With that being said, as I grew older, I realized that loving someone is not just about lovey-dovey and romance. It is more than that. A Christian relationship is a covenant between man and God. It is a serious matter. It is with a great purpose and plan made by God. Having a partner of an equal yoke will allow the family, the love, and the future prospect of the family to have a firm foundation in Christ.
1 Corinthians 13
New King James Version
The Greatest Gift
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.
10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.
11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
We all know this great verse. It's always been quoted by both believers and non-believers alike that this is the ultimate form of love especially for couples.
Looking at verses 4 - 8, we can see it in another way by replacing the word love with your own name. Am I, Jeffrey, patient? Am I kind?
The question to ask myself as a Christian is, am I filled with the Holy Spirit? Am I emulating God's love? I know I cannot be perfect, but am I even trying? That is the biggest question. I know my flaws and I acknowledge them. Every day, every week, every month, every year, I struggle and try my hardest to always be right in the eyes of the Lord cause I love him, and I want to be his faithful servant.
At the end of the day, I do want to have a partner in this lifetime. I do want to start a family. I want somebody to love and to be loved by somebody. However, I also understand I'm not a great person. Heck, I would give girls reasons not to date me.
I'm not rich, I'm not handsome or macho, I'm not smart, I'm not an entrepreneur or a CEO, I don't have a property nor do I drive fast cars and I grew up in a broken family.
The only thing I can promise is, faithfulness in God, faithfulness in a partner, family is my top priority, and that I'm genuine when it comes to caring for people I care about.
I'm already 31 years old, so let's see where God leads me, who He puts in my life, and who I will meet. One thing is for sure, as much I would like a romantic life, I'm looking but I'm not desperate, nor am I rushing.
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